Living in the Tension of Suffering and Joy

Last weekend I listened to this statement and it resonated with my heart and soul. It was a revelation of truth that answered the questions I constantly grapple with during times of suffering. It was a breath of fresh air that permeated my entire being and lifted me up.

I constantly wrestle in times of suffering wondering how long it will last and how I will cope, how I will recover, and what to do next. These questions are filled with emotions that most always do not serve me well. And in times of joy, I feel a tendency to withhold my whole heart from receiving the blessing and being 100% in the moment, because I need to brace myself for the next suffering that may happen. I now realize this way of living is not only exhausting, but it is not truly living.