Sometimes I struggle with holding myself to unattainable standards of living. When I make mistakes or flounder in life, I tend to reassess, analyze and make a plan for improvement. I often go to the deep layers of my heart and try to “see” where the behavior or reactions originate, painfully treating the source. I believe in facing the truth rather than living in denial, but I can tend to slip into striving which results in tension and pressure, performance driven living.
Life constantly presents me with opportunities, events, circumstances, surprise challenges and new relationships. Some are planned and some spring upon me unexpected. As life progresses, I am learning to respect and trust my intuition. My challenge has been walking alongside apprehension. The apprehension does not necessarily stop my choice or plan to move forward, but this companion steals my emotional energy and distracts me from living fully in the moment. If I choose to